When Confusion Prevails.....

i really am confused...most of the time i repress what i feel just to get all this confusion out of my head..i ignore facts and live up life that seems to be ideal..or is it? some says im really confident with everything that i do...or everythintg that i say...but gosh if only someone knows how i really feel inside they'll say that im not really anything ryt now...i mean..i dont think i have a talent..im not powerful or anything..my life seems so ordinary..
and people always go away...well i even dont know if those who are ryt beside me are true friends..(although some are)...since i was young all i want in lyf is to be happy...but there are always circumstances that makes it so unhappy...
i know i shud not be saying this because still im lucky in one way or another because my life has been normal..but if there are already things that bothers me...i cant tell it to anybody anymore...well i tell it to other people but in a way that says..hey i have a problem but i can handle this..well i always say that..and actually i really cant...well i knw i havent experienced the worst yet but there a saying that says suffering is the same for everybody..(not really the exact words)..so when i suffer..i really do suffer...hahay..so drama ako ngayon..well thats my life...